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i will [27 Jul 2008|05:52pm]
you can't be saved
from yourself by someone else
i prayed for an easy answer
and nothing came...

ill-advised as it may be
to think of you still,
when no one cares about you, i will
when life goes on without you, i will
when i can't live without you, i will
i will

what was that girl's name?
i remember now, but it's not the same.
shameful thoughts fill my head,
i thought i saw your face--
you were in hell, but you weren't dead...
yet.

ill-advised as it may be
to think of you still,
when no one cares about you, i will
when life goes on without you, i will
when i can't live without you, i will
i will

every promise i have made,
i'm breaking them.
i won't watch you dig your grave
and lay in it.
to all the demons that you'll face
by your side, stride for stride
i'll deal with them.
i won't let you be replaced.

you can't fix me,
some things never change
in another life,
i'll be something else
you can't fix me,
some things never change
that won't stop me now

ill-advised as it may be
to think of you still,
when no one cares about you, i will
when life goes on without you, i will
when i can't live without you, i will
i will
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play dead [29 May 2008|06:44pm]
tangled in your arms again
they're the vines that confine me
because you wrap your limbs around
until it hurts to break free

but i won't apologize
for the things that i did right
and i won't crumble
when you you cry

watch you play dead when i leave
they're the times that remind me
what you get ain't what you need
when you get so lonely

but i won't apologize
for the things that i did right
and i won't waste
another night

i won't say a word
if you disappear
you know you
aren't wanted here
i, in some way,
feel sorry for you
(in some small way,
i pity you)
but that's just
what you wanted too
so i'm taking
myself back
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If You Looked In My Heart [25 Dec 2007|03:15pm]
i have tried
through burning eyes to see
all the things
you say you're doing for me,
what are you doing for me?
i know in time
i'll find a way
to keep you in the frame

i am not changing
i'm just remembering who i am
i know you'll blame me
but i won't play that game again

while you're trying so hard to find anyone else,
if you looked in my heart, you'd only see yourself

i have lied
a thousand times to say
don't worry, you know i feel that way
but i don't feel that way
i knew in time
i'd fade away
from all the plans you made

when your heart breaks, i stand back
because mine is not the other half
so i fake it and i try to make you laugh
but i won't take the aftermath.

if you looked in my heart, you'd only see yourself.
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Norway [25 Dec 2007|03:20am]
norway, norway
on christmas day
oh, the way you glow,
it could melt the snow
and turn every bitter heart
to sweetness.

over the inlet
we watched the sunset
we watched the bombs
drop over our heads
at the end, you held my hand
you were a good friend

fla., u.s.a.
who could turn your love away?
oh, if you could know
how their feelings show,
every wicked heart would burn
with regret.

over the inlet,
we watched the sunset
we watched the bombs
drop over our heads
at the end, you held my hand
you were my best friend
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my best friend [09 Dec 2007|11:44pm]
i am a warrior.
where i go, they fear my name.
and if i could take you there with me,
they'd show you things you've never seen
in your life.

though they may say
they don't need you
you're the backbone
you're the best glue
i'd throw it all away
to have you near another day
and if they say
they don't want you
you're my best friend
and i need you
i'd trade my cold heart in
to spend a day with my best friend.

and it gets easier one day
to forget
the promises i've made that
i regret
for the blood that's in my veins
or i would spill
in his unholy name

and i'd sing a song for you
if they would let me sing it true
but all that i can do
is try to breathe beneath this mask

though they may say
they don't need you
you're the backbone
you're the best glue
i'd throw it all away
to have you near another day
and if they say
they don't want you
you're my best friend
and i need you
i'd trade the gold life in
to spend a day with my best friend.
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i've seen that look before [07 Dec 2007|09:15pm]
call the nurses, there's a problem
uninvited visitor
there's a girl, she's screaming at me
i've seen that look before

don't wait
i'm not going to be your strength
today, we break
from the lips of smiles we fake
her heart beats
she haunts you
you want her
to leave you
and you think
this is the day.

call 911, i'm a felon
and i feel like doing time
for the martyr because i caught her
picking up that knife

don't wait
i'm not going to be your strength
today, i break
from the lips of smiles we fake
her heart beats
she haunts you
you want her
to leave you
and you think
this is the day.
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If You Stay [05 Dec 2007|04:44am]
i know i know i know
it's hard to be alone
don't give up
you've got guts
you've got spine
you'll find your way home

you're mine for all time
but you're scared, you're not getting it
if you stay, i will love you anyway
i don't care if you're there.

beneath the family tree
your secret's safe with me.
you can find me there, i will wait right here
until the moment's right

you're mine for all time
but you're scared, you're not getting it
if you stay, i will love you anyway
i don't care if you're there.
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Rockefeller [03 Nov 2007|02:39pm]
save me, interstate
from the games that i play.
i couldn't ask you to stay,
but you did.
central park to rockefeller
where we'll spend every winter
together.

breathe in so deep
you can barely even speak
when you talk to me.
don't ever leave
say whatever it takes
to make me believe
you need me.

thank god for the day
you almost threw your life away
now i'm here to stay.
and it hurts me to leave
and so i see your face in the morning
glowing for me.

and you say you'll always care.
and you say you're always there.
try as i might, to prove i'm right
i just can't do this every night.
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valentine [20 Aug 2007|12:36am]
"oh," you said
yesterday
"there's too many reasons to stay."
so you left
went far away,
might hurt you to throw it away.

and if you want me to
i'll find my way back to you,
my valentine.
(left you so far behind
in the back of my mind
if you wait, I will find
my valentine.)

city lights
blurred by tears
hoping you'll disappear
but you'll open up
break the spell
waste your time with someone else.

and if you want me to
i'll find my way back to you,
my valentine.
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supervillain [04 Jul 2007|12:26am]
the screen flashes red
with this cardioid diagram
and i reveal my plan
like a supervillain.

this time you don't escape.
claw at the glass tank,
but you won't get away.
oh girl, don't be afraid.

your eyes betray your moves
as you dart across the room.
a self-destructing dream
caught on the surveillance feed.
as the walls close in,
we can finally begin.
and i reveal my plan
like a supervillain.

this time you don't escape.
claw at the glass tank,
but you won't get away.
oh girl, don't be afraid.

i ask why it has to end
before it could begin.
don't
say
you love me
if you're going to walk away
in a month
or a year...

this time you don't escape.
claw at the glass tank,
but you won't get away.
oh girl, don't be afraid.
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say hello [04 Jul 2007|12:18am]
squeeze the last tears from your eyes
there's one less star in the night sky
finish last with the nice guys
save your breath for the goodbyes

...and did your heart break
when they told you it was over?
pack your bags and go back home
on your own.
...and did you wake up
to the sight of what's inside you
going off and turning on?

will you stand on the sidelines
or show the world that you're still alive?
we don't care about your alibis
save your breath for the good times

...and did your heart break
when they told you it was over?
pack your bags and go back home
on your own.
...and did you wake up
to decide that what's inside you
is going off and turning on?

now that it's on
this can't be wrong.
you'll see this through
coming into your room.

...and did your heart break
when they told you it was over?
pack your bags and go back home
on your own.
...and did you wake up
to the sight of what's inside you
going off and turning on?
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Untying the Knot [24 Nov 2006|08:30pm]
You wasted simple lives on this,
to pay for what you couldn't get on your own.
Did you think that they'd never know the truth?

Does it mean anything to you,
or is it just another tool to abuse?
I think it's overdue.
When the walls are down, we can finally break through.

I won't love it or leave it forever.
Sorry mister, I can do better.
When there's no fear left to ascend on,
we can stay here. Oh.
I won't love it or leave it forever.
Sorry mister, I can do better.
When there's no one left to depend on,
you can stay here and fend for yourself.

Strewn across the floor of your apartment,
I can see so clearly, the things I held so dearly,
are killing me now.

Does it mean anything to you,
or is it just another tool to abuse?
I think it's overdue.
When the walls are down, we can finally break through.

I won't love it or leave it forever.
Sorry mister, I can do better.
When there's no fear left to ascend on,
we can stay here. Oh.
I won't love it or leave it forever.
Sorry mister, I can do better.
When there's no one left to depend on,
you can stay here and fend for yourself.
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The Motions [08 Oct 2006|08:10am]
Welcome to the ocean,
it's time to find your way to solid ground.
We'll go through the motions,
you forget your devotion or sacrifice the sound.

Never thought that it would come to this
and I'm pissed that you could ever hurt me.
You don't return my calls,
make a list of all the things I ever told you,
promises that always fall through.
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Keep the Faith [20 Dec 2005|03:52pm]
They told me to breathe fire,
but my lungs have been frozen.

In my pursuit of everything,
I found nothing.

I left, and closed the door behind me,
I thought that I had finally found my home.
But this house does nothing but remind me,
of the person that I can't be,
and it's starting to get old.
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MACEDONIA [08 Aug 2005|11:05am]
My how the mighty have fallen.
We give ourselves to another hero,
and we're back to crawling.

I see you in a part of me:
bloodthirsty, power hungry;
tearing like a wolf at the heart
of your next adversary,
of your next victory.

Alexander,
the world outside these walls
couldn't care less
about your conquests.
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Fallback Academy [21 Feb 2005|07:49pm]
I know that I know how to make the worst of a bad situation.
If you saw through the things I do, you'd find the root of this frustration.
I'll be the cadaver that teaches you the inner workings of mankind.
If you want to see a broken heart, cut me open and take mine.

I tried every key and now it seems to me that you will never be open.

My affinity for success doesn't affect my ability to fail.
If you only knew the things you could do, you wouldn't feel so frail.

I tried every key and now it seems to me that you will never be open.
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Ignite [10 Dec 2004|11:17am]
Lost in your words, they come to me in letters signed sincerely.
Will you believe the words you read? A heart slipped out onto this sleeve.

Of course you'll say that they spoke to you in a way that I never could.
I can't explain efforts made in vain to make you feel the way you should.

But I'll try to make you feel like the light
exploding from the sky tonight.
Burning me alive, but for now I am alright,
and if you feel the same way, ignite.

Of course you'll say that you wanted it this way, complacency's no good.
My heart will break in a million different ways to make my feelings understood.

And I'll try to make you feel like the light
exploding from the sky tonight.
Burning me alive, but for now I am alright,
and if you feel the same way, ignite.
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FOREVER GOODNIGHT [13 Nov 2004|05:07pm]
[ mood | emo ]

Tonight, you are the brightest star in the sky.
Your fire inspires the sun to bring light.
When morning arrives to send chills down my spine,
I'll hope that this night never ends.
You're right, I'm wrong, and it comes as little surprise.
When words fall short of what's on my mind.
I'm paralyzed with fear but I'd rather be here
than anywhere else in the world.

You're so beautiful. I can't take it anymore.
If tomorrow takes you away, I'll be standing at your door.

Shoulder to shoulder adored.
Can I come closer before you see through me?
Before we say forever goodnight.

You're so beautiful. I can't take it anymore.
If tomorrow takes you from me, I'll still be standing at your door.
This world is not enough for you because you deserve so much more.
If tomorrow takes me from you, will you remember your boy?

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SCARS & STAINS [18 Aug 2004|11:10am]
[ mood | vilifying ]

They brought you into this place, all scars and stains, memories erased
by the days that passed and the people who replaced you.
Alone, too afraid to continue, from all the things that you've been through,
and all the friends that left you out in the cold.

This is your last chance to tell, if you know them so well.
Well, I've got your burning hell out here in the rain.
Time for your classic betrayal in this, your last chance to fail.
She breaks, a conscience so frail, let's see the remains.

It took that look in your eyes to make me realize
just what you're capable of, obsessive razor love.
Time for your final say, you take the stage,
all smiles and sunny days scattered among the graves.

This is your last chance to tell, if you know them so well.
Well, I've got your burning hell out here in the rain.
Time for your classic betrayal in this, your last chance to fail.
She breaks, a conscience so frail, let's see the remains.

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Burning Bridges [28 Feb 2004|03:06pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]

Closing in on the fall.
It takes all you've got to give it your all.
And will they see what you've done for me?
A million questions, just one

Answer that I don't think I can live without.
Will you defy the logic that defines us?
They will listen when we're loud.

Getting cold, our hearts are sold to the highest bidders.
Would you consider speaking up or staring down?
You could be alright, if you would only

Answer that I don't think I can live without.
Will you defy the logic that defines us?
They will listen when we're loud.

Is it not enough to stand up
and let them hear what we have to say?
Let's leave today, burn our bridges to the ground,
never knowing what we found in this place.
We could chase empty dreams until we're dying,
but now what's the point in trying?
In a world that's always crying
for the people who are lying
Tell me what's the point in living?
if we can never be forgiven.

Getting cold, our hearts are sold to the highest bidders.
Would you consider speaking up or staring down?
You could be alright, if you would only

Answer that I don't think I can live without.
Will you defy the logic that defines us?
They will listen when we're loud.

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